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TILL ALLA FANS SOM IBLAND KOLLAR IN!
Jag bloggar nu från annan adress:)
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Ni är så välkomna in:)
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Ni är så välkomna in:)
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I´m here in Florida...
Well...been here a week now...got a tan...been with some old friends...hanging with the kiddies...relaxing..
Love it here always feels like coming home...except for the fact that I am in my parents house and didn´t even feel at home there when I was a baby...;)
Me and my dad has never gotten along...He is a military rough kind of a guy and his way is ALWAYS the right way...And according to him I have always been a looser since birth...For the past 13 years I´ve lived far away from him and that has been good...We get along much better then...But now when I am here in the same house with him again old stuff keeps coming back...The way he puts people down all of the time...it´s like being around a big bully...I´m not kidding when I say I´ve been a bit homicidal in thought the last couple of days hahaha...
Other than that it´s so lovely here...Should have married an american years ago...I mean a Floridian...;) So I could stayed here far away from all the crap...But I have people back in Europe that I miss very much so...Who knows maybe I will open up my own tattoo shop here sometime in the future...Who needs marriage anyway when u can do it on your own...Might bring someone along anyway:) and the kiddies ofcourse...
No I am as you say in swedish building air castles hahaha
The shopping here is fab! Been buying a lot of stuff for my tattoo studio...The dollar is so low right now it´s crazy!
16 more days to go....got lots of things to do and people to meet and parties to go to....The air here is oooooo humid and warm it´s like breathing under water...oooo Paradise!
xox
Off into the sunset I go!
I´m yours
Livet är faktiskt en lustig liten jävel ibland...
Jobbat fullkomligt ihjäl mig under våren och nu på onsdag åker jag iväg o hälsar på päronen i Florida en hel månad... Ska bli underbart!
Det har märkts att jag jobbat o stressat en tid nu....En del av mina vänner är irriterade på att jag aldrig har tid för dem och hemma har det varit en del gnäll där med men jag höjer näsan över ytan och står för att just nu behöver jag tänka på mig själv och skaffa en gedigen karriär som jag inte haft tid för innan. Stå på sig....lite nytt för mig faktiskt ute i "the real world" inte riktigt samma sak som att simma motströms på strippklubbar för att överleva direkt....Det är en jäkla balansgång.
Försöker verkligen att få alla jag bryr mig om att må bra trots tidsbristen. Tatueringen har kickat igång och jag kör nu på för fullt. Otroligt roligt. Detta är verkligen något som jag hoppas kunna ha som heltidsyrke i framtiden och slippa springa och slita ihjäl mig som servitris på alla möjliga ställen bla.
Packat lite idag och förberett för att sticka till Landvetter halv tre på natten mellan tisdag o onsdag... Hoppas barnen är lugna på flyget....Åksjukemedicin blir de nog dåsiga av väl;)
På Onsdag flyger jag in i en ny dimension och lämnar allt hemma bakom mig för en månad vilket känns skumt...Har lite separationsångest hahaha.
Spännande! Nytt land, nya möjligheter, nya intressanta människor att träffa....Ska definivt blogga om mitt äventyr i det soliga Florida.
Ska bara jobba lite till innan:)
Jobbat fullkomligt ihjäl mig under våren och nu på onsdag åker jag iväg o hälsar på päronen i Florida en hel månad... Ska bli underbart!
Det har märkts att jag jobbat o stressat en tid nu....En del av mina vänner är irriterade på att jag aldrig har tid för dem och hemma har det varit en del gnäll där med men jag höjer näsan över ytan och står för att just nu behöver jag tänka på mig själv och skaffa en gedigen karriär som jag inte haft tid för innan. Stå på sig....lite nytt för mig faktiskt ute i "the real world" inte riktigt samma sak som att simma motströms på strippklubbar för att överleva direkt....Det är en jäkla balansgång.
Försöker verkligen att få alla jag bryr mig om att må bra trots tidsbristen. Tatueringen har kickat igång och jag kör nu på för fullt. Otroligt roligt. Detta är verkligen något som jag hoppas kunna ha som heltidsyrke i framtiden och slippa springa och slita ihjäl mig som servitris på alla möjliga ställen bla.
Packat lite idag och förberett för att sticka till Landvetter halv tre på natten mellan tisdag o onsdag... Hoppas barnen är lugna på flyget....Åksjukemedicin blir de nog dåsiga av väl;)
På Onsdag flyger jag in i en ny dimension och lämnar allt hemma bakom mig för en månad vilket känns skumt...Har lite separationsångest hahaha.
Spännande! Nytt land, nya möjligheter, nya intressanta människor att träffa....Ska definivt blogga om mitt äventyr i det soliga Florida.
Ska bara jobba lite till innan:)
Oh yea I´m looking for a real lady for my little brother...Any takers? :)
Life is pretty fly!
Got a question from a girl if there are any clubs I could recommend that don´t use their employees:::
Reply NO...But ofcourse there are bad and not so bad clubs..Try Chat Noir in Gothenburg..Don´t know if they have changed their location yet I haven´t been in the game for a wile but go ahead and ask around.....Geisha Garden in Borås is pretty selfsufficient...Be aware of lot´s of drugs and punters but as long as you are no pushover I guess you´d do ok.
Other than that I would recommend to abstain from working at a club...If you insist on trying out anyway I would recommend to go to a strippers agency online instead! Try Svensk Strippförmedling in Stockholm just go online and google them.They take girls from the entire country of Sweden.
Other than that life is moving forward.Lots of love,work and tattoing.
I´m off to Venice Florida 18th of june until july 16th..During that time this blog will be covered in sunshine! There will be a whole lot of inputs from my beachhopping days and adventures!
Today I inked a leadsinger in a rock band. It was a big piece and it was so much fun.
Now I´m going out on the balcony and just relish in the lovely sun and enjoy my first weekend off for months aaaaah!
Cheers everybody!
Reply NO...But ofcourse there are bad and not so bad clubs..Try Chat Noir in Gothenburg..Don´t know if they have changed their location yet I haven´t been in the game for a wile but go ahead and ask around.....Geisha Garden in Borås is pretty selfsufficient...Be aware of lot´s of drugs and punters but as long as you are no pushover I guess you´d do ok.
Other than that I would recommend to abstain from working at a club...If you insist on trying out anyway I would recommend to go to a strippers agency online instead! Try Svensk Strippförmedling in Stockholm just go online and google them.They take girls from the entire country of Sweden.
Other than that life is moving forward.Lots of love,work and tattoing.
I´m off to Venice Florida 18th of june until july 16th..During that time this blog will be covered in sunshine! There will be a whole lot of inputs from my beachhopping days and adventures!
Today I inked a leadsinger in a rock band. It was a big piece and it was so much fun.
Now I´m going out on the balcony and just relish in the lovely sun and enjoy my first weekend off for months aaaaah!
Cheers everybody!
Emotion of the day
Working working working
Been working so hard the past few weeks that now I have an inflammation in my ancle that won´t go away...Still working though:)
Waiting tables during lunch and as a roadie during nights and weekends and doing my tattoo apprenticeship as well. At the same time I´m trying to keep the burlesque group together...Me and one of the other girls are looking in to gigs and a minitour of England soon.
Going to an interview tomorrow at a new restaurant here in town who need waitresses during evening shifts...pays a whole lot better than just doing lunches....would be great if I got some hours there as well....Awaiting the tattoo studios´ opening so I can cut down on some other jobs and just dig into the creative work I was intended to do...Hopefully soon!
June 18th I am going to Florida for a month visiting my parents....Nice holiday!
Haven´t heard anything more from the girls from the club who apparently is spreading false rumours about me...Have met a few "customers" in the restaurant....Some who ignore me ´cause they are with friends or girlfriends:) some say hi... I don´t think my boss has noticed anything yet I do believe he knows what I used to work with but as long as he thinks I am a hard worker he doesn´t seem to care....And I do work hard....I was a bit new to the restaurant at first and got yelled at a bit but now they tell me to slow down instead so I must be doing something right!
It´s fun though and I like it....except for the soreness and the bad paycheck....Do need to get some nights in or I have to change restaurants...There are no tips during lunch either and tips would be nice:)
A very dear friend of mine from England..Suz, is a Reiki healer....actually she works as something else during the days at a social office but it´s her extra passionate job you may say...She did a session on me last night..via air or whatever hahaha....She was in England and did a long distance healing session....It was weird...I didn´t communicate with her by phone or anything during the session we just set a time for me to lie down and relax....Weird stuff started to happen....First I felt really warm and then I just started to laugh hysterically about nothing at all....There were nothing that made me laugh I just started laughing....After that everything went bright and I could see a group of shady people coming toward me like something from Lord of the rings....Really weird...Didn´t know if I believed in the stuff before but now I´m becoming more open....She is coming for a visit in the beginning of june and will do a session up close..That will be interesting!
She was here last month and we had a blast....We both have a really sick sense of humour and we both like red wine...Well you can almost imagine us!
Right now there is a lot of stress and work but I feel very content about it....I love having a lot to do....And move around physically....don´t like to just hang around all of the time and slouch even if it´s nice sometimes to have a day to relax..Will work a lot up until june then I can feel like I´ve deserved the vacation...
And after meeting some old customers at the restaurant I felt so happy that I left the stripp scene....
I feel so happy about living my life the way it was supposed to be...
Waiting tables during lunch and as a roadie during nights and weekends and doing my tattoo apprenticeship as well. At the same time I´m trying to keep the burlesque group together...Me and one of the other girls are looking in to gigs and a minitour of England soon.
Going to an interview tomorrow at a new restaurant here in town who need waitresses during evening shifts...pays a whole lot better than just doing lunches....would be great if I got some hours there as well....Awaiting the tattoo studios´ opening so I can cut down on some other jobs and just dig into the creative work I was intended to do...Hopefully soon!
June 18th I am going to Florida for a month visiting my parents....Nice holiday!
Haven´t heard anything more from the girls from the club who apparently is spreading false rumours about me...Have met a few "customers" in the restaurant....Some who ignore me ´cause they are with friends or girlfriends:) some say hi... I don´t think my boss has noticed anything yet I do believe he knows what I used to work with but as long as he thinks I am a hard worker he doesn´t seem to care....And I do work hard....I was a bit new to the restaurant at first and got yelled at a bit but now they tell me to slow down instead so I must be doing something right!
It´s fun though and I like it....except for the soreness and the bad paycheck....Do need to get some nights in or I have to change restaurants...There are no tips during lunch either and tips would be nice:)
A very dear friend of mine from England..Suz, is a Reiki healer....actually she works as something else during the days at a social office but it´s her extra passionate job you may say...She did a session on me last night..via air or whatever hahaha....She was in England and did a long distance healing session....It was weird...I didn´t communicate with her by phone or anything during the session we just set a time for me to lie down and relax....Weird stuff started to happen....First I felt really warm and then I just started to laugh hysterically about nothing at all....There were nothing that made me laugh I just started laughing....After that everything went bright and I could see a group of shady people coming toward me like something from Lord of the rings....Really weird...Didn´t know if I believed in the stuff before but now I´m becoming more open....She is coming for a visit in the beginning of june and will do a session up close..That will be interesting!
She was here last month and we had a blast....We both have a really sick sense of humour and we both like red wine...Well you can almost imagine us!
Right now there is a lot of stress and work but I feel very content about it....I love having a lot to do....And move around physically....don´t like to just hang around all of the time and slouch even if it´s nice sometimes to have a day to relax..Will work a lot up until june then I can feel like I´ve deserved the vacation...
And after meeting some old customers at the restaurant I felt so happy that I left the stripp scene....
I feel so happy about living my life the way it was supposed to be...
A light for Engla
All ready for the weekend!
Ouch ouch ouch
Been waiting tables during lunch frenzy all week...Cudos to all you waiters and waitresses out there not as simple and easygoing as it looks...I haven´t had this much pain in my entire body since after my first ever yoga class:)
This weekend is pretty cool for once only has two small roadie jobs otherwise it´s me and a couple of really hot baths and chilling with the kiddies.
Got hold of some of the strippers at the old club about that vicious rumour. Told them excactly my plans and one of them called me up straight away and said it had to do with some other stripper who´s name sounds a little like mine but just a teeeeny tiny like mine I have to add.
Called my resource back and he said that is just not true...It was MY name that was going through the cleaners NOT hers...I just wanted to check cause I didn´t either believe that stripper on the phone...
What to do next? I will check it out for myself and do what I have to do...it´s just that simple...If they prefer to lie to my face that will be their mistake not mine...
Can´t wait to go away to Florida this summer...Leaving June 18th. It will be a long and well deserved break.
Heard that the club where I use to work here in town is really going down the draines...People say it smells like cat pee and is a total mess and torn down...The girls are high as kites and doesn´t look good. The complaining goes on and on. I can just imagine...Never going back there and I am glad I left before it really started to fall apart.
Finally spring seems to arrive to Sweden...I saw my first wasp yesterday...
We are brainstorming about how to shoot the final scenes for the movie and it really needs to be perfect and the director is worth his weight in gold so I really believe he will make that happen.
I am going for a piping hot bath now...OUch ouch ouch!
Hear me roooar!
Oh what tangled web we weave...
I am just in a state of total f###ing waaaa! I´m so pissed off to put it blunt!
Stopped busting my ass off at the clubs last summer and still they just can´t let me go can they?
The thing about strip clubs and strippers in particular is that there are a lot of rumours going around.
The girls are the main sources to these wicked and most of the times straight out lies. Most of the time it comes down to old fashioned jealousy..Some girl is good at her job, keeps a nice face outwards and talks politely to the guests or is just plain charming...Because of this she is the one who goes home with the most cash after the night is through...Now...the other girls working there might not be as nice to the guests and just have a bad attitude and are propably not feeling like talking nicely to some drunk guys...What do they do then?
They start to blame their own flaws on to the girl who is just doing her job....they back talk her and start to spread rumours...Most of the time it´s about...."o she must be doing something extra....something illegal" or "she´s such a whore" and similar things....They do this in hope that the rumours will reach the boss and that he´ll fire the girl.and TADAA the competition is illiminated..believe me things like that happens...Girls sometimes get fired without any evidence...I know girls who really do work as prostitutes on the side who has backtalked innocent girls and got them in trouble...
I know a lot about the girls working in the clubs at the moment. They should keep their big mouths shut and throw away the key....but ofcourse....we´re talking about girls with not the highest IQ...At least not the ones I am talking about...
I´ve told you before that I was the only girl at my club that I knew wasn´t in to drugs...Didn´t hang with the others etc...So I was different and they treated me that way as well...Spoke over my head...behind my back etc...and I really didn´t care if they didn´t hang with me...We were so different and our lives were so different...I went home to my kids and normal life as a student which I was back then and they did their thing....which was far away from similar.
I really didn´t care except for when they started rumours...Some of them I could just laugh at but others I strongly reacted towards.
I just felt like if you girls just do your thing and I do mine and let me be than everything will be just fine but ofcourse they got bored of that and I was to good with the customers...Laughing, joking, making connections all in a very legal way I must add...They did not like me being one of the favourites.
These were as I said girls who I knew a lot of illegal stuff about...Prostitution,drugs etc....and they knew that I knew it as well. Well I told you about the IQ....obviously logical thinking wasn´t an issue...
So today....almost a year later...I get a phone call from an old friend who was someone who stood up for me when I was a stripper and watched my back....This person had SHOCKING news....Someone is spreading a rumour about me around town...It´s not just a rumour...actually you could go to jail in Sweden for spreading things like that...I am just about to find out who started it...contacts are being checked out so I will share with you later what excactly has been spewed out around my community.
I can only say that it is vicious and it´s something you say to really really hurt the person it´s about....Both socially and mentally.
When I find out who it is....I will not only press charges against this person...I will def go to the police...But I will also share my knowledge....facts I know about this person with others ´cause I´ve been to nice for too long towards these people....I´ve been taking so much crap from them over the years...I am not holding them behind their backs no more! I will out that person the biggest way that person can be outed! I have my suspicions about who she or them can be and if it is who I suspect I´ve had enough ´cause it´s been so many similar but not as hurtful things I´ve taken from them before and THIS IS IT!
I actually don´t know why they care so much about me after this time...Maybe ´cause I´ve gotten somewhere in my life and that it´s going very well and I don´t need the clubs no more... Or it has something to do with them being so bored over there....heard the club is really run down and the girls are making practically nothing.
Anyway I feel so sorry for the person or persons who did this...
I can be the best friend in the world....But my smiling helpful personality that sometimes also just swallows crap people give me to keep the peace can come back with a vengeance...
I can be the worse enemy they´ve known...
Of course the rumour is not true....When I think about it they could have tried harder to make something up that would actually make sense...
I am also wondering if this has anything to do with that one of my closest friend has giving me the shoulder the past month...She won´t tell me what´s wrong she just freezes me out totally...I really don´t know why...That hurts...We´ve never argued or nothing...Hope she will tell me someday what has happened. I miss her!
Yup it´s been one of those days....
But what can I say....That´s life!
Stopped busting my ass off at the clubs last summer and still they just can´t let me go can they?
The thing about strip clubs and strippers in particular is that there are a lot of rumours going around.
The girls are the main sources to these wicked and most of the times straight out lies. Most of the time it comes down to old fashioned jealousy..Some girl is good at her job, keeps a nice face outwards and talks politely to the guests or is just plain charming...Because of this she is the one who goes home with the most cash after the night is through...Now...the other girls working there might not be as nice to the guests and just have a bad attitude and are propably not feeling like talking nicely to some drunk guys...What do they do then?
They start to blame their own flaws on to the girl who is just doing her job....they back talk her and start to spread rumours...Most of the time it´s about...."o she must be doing something extra....something illegal" or "she´s such a whore" and similar things....They do this in hope that the rumours will reach the boss and that he´ll fire the girl.and TADAA the competition is illiminated..believe me things like that happens...Girls sometimes get fired without any evidence...I know girls who really do work as prostitutes on the side who has backtalked innocent girls and got them in trouble...
I know a lot about the girls working in the clubs at the moment. They should keep their big mouths shut and throw away the key....but ofcourse....we´re talking about girls with not the highest IQ...At least not the ones I am talking about...
I´ve told you before that I was the only girl at my club that I knew wasn´t in to drugs...Didn´t hang with the others etc...So I was different and they treated me that way as well...Spoke over my head...behind my back etc...and I really didn´t care if they didn´t hang with me...We were so different and our lives were so different...I went home to my kids and normal life as a student which I was back then and they did their thing....which was far away from similar.
I really didn´t care except for when they started rumours...Some of them I could just laugh at but others I strongly reacted towards.
I just felt like if you girls just do your thing and I do mine and let me be than everything will be just fine but ofcourse they got bored of that and I was to good with the customers...Laughing, joking, making connections all in a very legal way I must add...They did not like me being one of the favourites.
These were as I said girls who I knew a lot of illegal stuff about...Prostitution,drugs etc....and they knew that I knew it as well. Well I told you about the IQ....obviously logical thinking wasn´t an issue...
So today....almost a year later...I get a phone call from an old friend who was someone who stood up for me when I was a stripper and watched my back....This person had SHOCKING news....Someone is spreading a rumour about me around town...It´s not just a rumour...actually you could go to jail in Sweden for spreading things like that...I am just about to find out who started it...contacts are being checked out so I will share with you later what excactly has been spewed out around my community.
I can only say that it is vicious and it´s something you say to really really hurt the person it´s about....Both socially and mentally.
When I find out who it is....I will not only press charges against this person...I will def go to the police...But I will also share my knowledge....facts I know about this person with others ´cause I´ve been to nice for too long towards these people....I´ve been taking so much crap from them over the years...I am not holding them behind their backs no more! I will out that person the biggest way that person can be outed! I have my suspicions about who she or them can be and if it is who I suspect I´ve had enough ´cause it´s been so many similar but not as hurtful things I´ve taken from them before and THIS IS IT!
I actually don´t know why they care so much about me after this time...Maybe ´cause I´ve gotten somewhere in my life and that it´s going very well and I don´t need the clubs no more... Or it has something to do with them being so bored over there....heard the club is really run down and the girls are making practically nothing.
Anyway I feel so sorry for the person or persons who did this...
I can be the best friend in the world....But my smiling helpful personality that sometimes also just swallows crap people give me to keep the peace can come back with a vengeance...
I can be the worse enemy they´ve known...
Of course the rumour is not true....When I think about it they could have tried harder to make something up that would actually make sense...
I am also wondering if this has anything to do with that one of my closest friend has giving me the shoulder the past month...She won´t tell me what´s wrong she just freezes me out totally...I really don´t know why...That hurts...We´ve never argued or nothing...Hope she will tell me someday what has happened. I miss her!
Yup it´s been one of those days....
But what can I say....That´s life!
Topsy Turvy
